Moving On

Today is a fabulous day! Because I say so.

 

So yesterday, I went out on my lunch for a short run as I promised myself I would. It’s about the only time I have to run, so I brought running clothes to work, and managed 2 miles. My knee bothered me some, but I was able to run through it with some walking, but overall I was very happy.

So today, the Rock ‘n’ Roll race series is having a big sale. If you’re a runner type, you probably already know that! So what did you all sign up for? I’m already signed up for the Half in San Diego, but I really want to run Chicago also since I’m right here. I’m just not sure if I should run another half just a month after San Diego, or just go for the 10k. Of course, I know me, and if I sign up for the 10k I’m going to regret it. After all, it IS only 6 miles. 😀 So I think I’m going to go for the half… a month in between should be ok for me, as I have plenty of time to build back up my long runs. As long as I take it slow through this winter.

Also yesterday, I took my big math placement test for college. I tested into Pre-Calculus, which makes me very happy. I have 4 weeks to retake the test if I want to try for a better score to get into a higher level class. Part of me wants to just start with Pre-calc to give me more base and practice. However, those classes are not going to be as easily transferable, and since I plan to transfer for a bachelor’s at another institution, I’m thinking of shooting for a better score so I can jump in with Calculus, which will transfer more easily.

Regardless of what I decide on the math front, I can’t tell you how excited I am to start back to school. I’ve thoroughly enjoyed the practice lessons I’ve been doing, and forgotten how much I love math. It just goes to show, follow your heart’s desire. I wanted to major in math way back when I graduated high school and I didn’t because I wasn’t sure where it could possibly take me. Now I know there are options out there. Part of me wishes I had the faith then that I do now, and had just taken that step. Better late than never!

So I’m moving on, and focusing on how I want to continue my life’s journey. Every step along the way gets us where we need to go. And I may not have any idea how this will all look in the end, but I have complete faith that it’ll be everything I could possibly hope for, and more.

If you believe yourself worthy of the thing you fought so hard to get, then you become an instrument of God, you help the Soul of the World, and you understand why you are here. ~Paulo Coelho

Livin the Dream

Way back a couple months ago when I started physical therapy, my physical therapist and I were talking about general stuff. You know, like what do you do for a living, family, etc. Typical small talk.

I wish I could remember exactly how he worded it. But he said he had a friend or someone that when asked about life, would respond with “Living the dream… just someone else’s dream” or something to that effect. In other words, dripping sarcasm. Not really living the dream at all, at least not the way they envisioned it.

So it was kind of a joke. Every day when I would go to physical therapy, he’d ask how it was going, and my response “You know, just living the dream.” But I’m not really living the dream at all. At least not what I had envisioned for myself.

But that’s changing.

Going back to high school, I never knew what I wanted to do with my life. I always loved math, but couldn’t see myself majoring in math in college. I just couldn’t see myself as a teacher, and didn’t know what else I would do with a math degree. So I went for accounting. And I hated it!

Last night, I had a meeting with my Money Man (what I affectionately call my financial adviser). I was talking to him about going back to school and he asked what my plans were. When I told him math, he said there’s so much more you can do with math than being a teacher! I wish I had someone to tell me that 25 years ago!

I find it so ironic that after all these years, I’m going back to school for the degree that I always wanted. I met with a college counselor on Saturday, and have been getting everything lined up to start in January. Stressful, for sure, but I know it’ll provide the challenge I need right now.

I really have no complaints about my life. I’m very thankful for what I have. And I appreciate all that I have been given. But that doesn’t mean I just want to maintain status quo. I’m still young, and I’ve got plenty of time to improve, to challenge myself. I love my job. I love the travel industry. But I also decided 4 years ago when going through my divorce that I never wanted to depend on anyone else ever again. I can take care of myself. And I want to be able to do a better job of it. And push myself.

So right now? Now it’s time for me to start livin’ the dream. Livin’ the REAL dream!

New Directions

So lets talk chocolate. Probably my favorite chocolate, ok one of them, is Dove. Not only is the chocolate itself so creamy and delicious, but I actually kinda live for the Dove Love as I call it. The little inspirations inside each wrapper. 

And can I just admit, that I really dislike that they don’t include that in their holiday chocolates? That’s right, there is no Dove Love to be had at Christmas. Or Halloween. Are you listening, Dove? You need to include your love with every bite! Anyway, I digress. 

So yesterday I had to stop at Walgreens for a prescription, and lo and behold, they were on sale. And I can’t walk away from a sale on Dove! So after being told I was gorgeous, I unwrapped this:

  
That’s right, because I can. Why did I move out and get on my own two feet 3.5 years ago? Because I could. Why did I get a tattoo? Because I could. Why do I run? Because I can. Why do I choose to eat healthy, organic food whenever possible? Because I can. Why do I do most things I choose to do? Yup, because I can. 

And then today, this gem:

  
So this is where I actually say out loud that I’ve been thinking of going back to school. I try to have no regrets in life. After all, every thing I’ve done was at the time exactly what I wanted. But looking back, the one regret I have is not going to college. Not getting a degree. Not living up to my potential. 

I did go to community college, and I have two diplomas, but I’m missing that bachelors. You know, the degree everyone looks for in new employees.  I’ve been telling myself for a while now that there’s more to life then money. And I believe that. But at the same time, I really don’t want to continue living like this for the rest of my life. I want more. I want to be able to afford to travel. I want to be able to have the funds to pay for things when they come up unexpectedly, whether that’s medical expenses, home expenses, or any number of things. I want to be able to give more freely. 

And truth be told, the reason I never pursued a degree after high school is because I never knew what I wanted to be when I grew up. And it’s only taken me 40 years, but I finally have some ideas. In a perfect world, I’ll be able to grow where I am. After all, I do love my job. But I’m not sure what my options are there. I’m still not 100% sure, but I feel like I at least have a direction I’d like to go.

And as with everything else in life, I’m not really sure how I’ll manage it, but I believe it’ll all work out some how. It always does. 

Every accomplishment starts with the decision to try.