A New Year

A new year means new beginnings, right? I really don’t feel the need to establish 2016 as a year to start over, but more to continue what I’ve already started.

I started off on the right foot today. Figuratively and literally. I really wanted to find a race to run today, to establish myself in 2016. So I found a New Year’s 5k in the city, run at Lincoln Park Zoo. And off I went.


The path was pretty icy, so when I say there was a lot of fancy footwork involved, I’m not kidding! I really need to work on taking more pictures. Maybe that should be a goal for the new year. Anyway, because of the rough footing, it was also a little more taxing on the knee than I would like, but I finished. Running. And running strong! And I’m still standing! I only had to walk a couple times to let the knee chill, then it was fine. So I’m happy and I’ll take it!

I’d also like to add, Nike Pro rocks! When I was back in Iowa for Christmas, we went shopping and hit up the Nike Outlet store in Des Moines. I got a couple Nike Pro Hyperwarm base layer tops. They are so warm! I layered one under my Under Armor Cold Gear half-zip, and was perfectly comfortable. I wore one under a standard issue Nike running top the other day, and that kept me plenty warm as well. Now I’m on a mission for a pair of their tights!

My daughter and I joined a gym yesterday also. Have been thinking of that for a number of reasons. I kept telling myself I could just do body workouts at home, but I know I’m not doing all I should be doing. I know I’ll utilize the gym more and get more strength training in, which I really need. We joined a full service gym, complete with indoor pool, so she’s going to help me with swimming and maybe, just maybe, I’ll participate in a mini tri this year as well. We’ll see. It’s a long term goal, so if not this year, that’ll definitely be on the calendar next year at some point.

I realize we are only on day 1, but I feel great about where I am. Physically and mentally. I’m maintaining my focus, and staying positive. Life sure is good!

Be content with what you have. Rejoice in the way things are. When you realize there is nothing lacking, the whole world belongs to you. ~Lao Tzu

Bring on 2016!

As I mentioned in recent posts, 2015 brought a lot of changes and awareness on a personal level. Most importantly, learning to accept myself, and accepting the fact that I had never truly grieved and moved beyond my past.

I’ve made a lot of decisions this past year. Accepting who I am today, but also realizing the need to keep pushing myself. To never settle. To always strive for the best.

As I started my workout this morning, the first song to come on Pandora was “I Lived” by One Republic. I’m not sure if I’ve heard the song before, but if I did I never paid attention to the lyrics.

Hope when you take that jump, you don’t fear the fall

Hope when the water rises, you built a wall

Hope when the crowd screams out, they’re screaming your name

Hope if everybody runs, you choose to stay
Hope that you fall in love, and it hurts so bad

The only way you can know is give it all you have

And I hope that you don’t suffer but take the pain

Hope when the moment comes, you’ll say
I, I did it all

I, I did it all

I owned every second that this world could give

I saw so many places, the things that I did

With every broken bone, I swear I lived
Hope that you spend your days, but they all add up

And when that sun goes down, hope you raise your cup

Oh, I wish that I could witness all your joy and all your pain

But until my moment comes, I’ll say

I, I did it all

I, I did it all

 

This. This is what I’m striving for. To live. Fully. To explore. To learn. To grow. And to love everything and every one along the way.

I’m not one for resolutions. But it’s that time of year, and I’ve come to the realization that there are things holding me back. So I have a goal for this week. I have so much “stuff” cluttering my life. Physical stuff. Things I’ve been holding onto because I can’t let it go. Stuff from my past. I used to enjoy scrapbooking, but I can’t bring myself to go through all the memories of the past. And holding onto all the “stuff”, the supplies, is just a reminder to me that I never finished what I started.

I promised to at least complete my daughters baby book, so I’m hoping with my week off work this week, I can finish what I started. Then the stuff goes. And all the things I’ve been holding onto to sell on eBay. It just needs to be gone. I’m looking forward to the freeing feeling so I can stop seeing the reminders. So I can focus on what’s important in my life now. Focusing on running. And school. And the goals I have set for myself. Without the weight of the past.