Patience Pays

Have you ever been in one of those seasons of your life when you just want to turn the clock ahead, like a year or so? I can’t tell you how many times I’ve felt that way. But deep down, I know that every second, of every minute, of every hour, of every day, is here for a reason. To learn from. And how many lessons would I miss out on if I skipped it all to get to the good stuff? Life is all about learning and growing. It seems the most growth takes place during the most difficult times. Why would I want to jump over that?

One of the lessons I’ve learned is that patience pays. I have to remind myself of this constantly. When it seems there’s setback after setback, that eventually, things will work out for the better. I just have to wait for it. Patience. I’ve made many decisions impulsively. And honestly, I can’t think of one that gave the result I was seeking. So although it may seem like I’ve been patient enough at times, apparently God doesn’t think so. So I keep learning, and waiting. I know it will pay in the end.

Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. ~Galatians 6:9

I typed this blog post up several days ago, but did not post it yet as I was waiting to add a photo. I noticed the other day my beautiful mum plant, and knew I wanted to share a photo, but just got around to taking them today. I planted these several years ago, two purple mums and one cream one. But look at what I have now!

Feelings of Fall

I know, I know! It’s been a while since I’ve posted yet again! But I’ve been inspired. 🙂 I had a wonderful weekend, much needed! And the sunshine didn’t hurt!

I’ve been having a rough couple weeks. And no, it’s not the family stuff bringing me down, but all the other stuff. But I’ve been reminded it doesn’t pay to dwell on the unknown. Live each day to the fullest! I saw last week that the topic of this weekend’s message at Willow was anxiety. Boy, is that timing, or what?! So I made sure I got my butt to church on Saturday. And Darren didn’t disappoint! What a moving message he delivered, and just what I needed. Although he referenced several wonderful passages from the bible, I didn’t write them down. But this one, was my favorite:

Every tomorrow has two handles. We can take hold of it with the handle of anxiety or the handle of faith. ~Henry Ward Beecher

I don’t know about you, but the faith option is a lot easier on the soul. I was thinking about this the other day also. Peace. I’ve felt that peace beyond all understanding before. Over the Summer. But I’ve been struggling recently with finding that feeling again. I’m still not totally there, but close. But in thinking about things, I started wondering. When I tell people about how peaceful I feel, even given everything going on, do they think it doesn’t bother me? That couldn’t be further from the truth. Finding peace in adversity doesn’t mean you don’t feel pain. Yes, it hurts. All the time. The pain will probably never go away. But finding that level of peace within yourself just helps ease that pain. To the point that you can focus on better, more positive things. I encourage everyone to really seek that peace, take the hand of God, and let Him lead you. It’s there, you just have to let go and allow Him to take your pain.

After church, I had the pleasure of joining some friends for dinner. Again, wonderful times and much needed conversation. I know everyone has their own troubles. I get so focused on mine sometimes that I just need a reminder that life isn’t all about what I’m going through. I know I have so many people that pray for me every day, even though they have their own struggles and anxieties. Isn’t that what life should be about? Supporting and praying for those you know, even those you don’t know, regardless of what you are going through?

Yesterday I attended church with my brother’s family and my daughter. Yes, we have unsupervised visits now, which makes doing things like this possible. It was another great message. A reminder that God is the one in control of us, not the other way around. It’s when we try to be in control, to do what we want, not what God wants, that things tend to go awry. And can I ever attest to that! The rest of our visit was spent carving pumpkins for Halloween. A wonderful, normal afternoon!

I also had the privilege of taking family photos for a friend yesterday. Some great Fall colors still out there! So I have several photos that I will share, from pumpkins, to families. I had a friend of mine with me when I went to my shoot. She spotted these beautiful red leaves, all alone, in a field of cat tails. A lone maple trying to sprout up. I love the colors of Fall, but particularly the bright red! So I stopped on the way back to capture the beauty of the new life. Enjoy these photos of Fall!

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From Rain Comes Rainbows

If you want the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain.

I’ve started following multiple pages on facebook lately, that are all about positive attitudes, thankfulness, and the like. It’s really inspiring to see these messages daily, as a reminder to how thankful we should be just to be alive. And no matter what is going on in our lives, there’s always reason to celebrate. I saw this quote the other day, and I love it. It’s so true. Nothing in life comes easy. Even the bible says we will have troubles. John 16:33 says:

“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”

And the more pain and growth we have to go through as we weather our storms, the more beautiful that rainbow at the end.

If you’ve been reading my blog, you know the basics of what I’m dealing with on a personal level. And every time I see a glimmer of hope, something else comes along. Most recently, this past week. As if my personal issues weren’t enough, I now have medical questions. I’m sure it will turn out to be nothing, but the thought that there could be a problem is there. Everything happens for a reason… and there’s a reason I’ve finally taken steps on some things that I’ve procrastinated on for far too long! On a positive note, my blood pressure was low, I think the lowest it’s ever been in my life. I must be doing something right!

This past Saturday marked the 6 month mark of when my life changed. And it was a bad day. I was forced to relive the pain, only I was more understanding and accepting. Therein lies one of the biggest changes I’ve made in my life in the past six months. Accepting everything for what it is, and truly believing that things happen for a reason. And eventually, I’ll be a much better person because of it. I’m already finding truth in that. And the peace that I’ve found within is something I can’t even describe.

I read a friend’s blog the other day about change. It’s something I’ve always struggled with. How do you change? And how do you get past the fear? For me, I was forced into change. I didn’t have a choice. And I still fear every step and every choice I make. But it’s the faith that keeps me going. Am I going to stumble? And maybe even fall? Absolutely. But it’s all worth the risk. You don’t know what’s waiting on the other side if you don’t try. I still don’t know where these changes in my life are going to lead me. But I have to have faith, and trust, that eventually it will have all been worth it.